Honestly I hate my life and what it has become. I don’t blame you for leaving I really don’t. ever since you left though I did change I did I’m not going to deny it. You were the one that kept me together the one that kept me from falling apart. I never told you how much I needed you because I always thought me and you were going to be together. but now that your gone I have fallen apart im not who I want to be and I really don’t think I can go back. don’t think its your fault though I don’t want you blaming yourself this is all on me. I fucked up with you, my parent,s and everyone else. ive let people down and it sucks. I cry every single day because I miss you so damn much. I know he makes you happy so I don’t bother you I wont bother you. if you need anything you know you can count on me no matter what time of the day it is or what it is for just remember I love you…

And tonight lets drink to forget the pain